Worship While Waiting
Waiting… We live in a world where waiting and patience are not part of our vocabulary. Siri gives us instant information, we can drive up to a window for instant dinners, we can now instantly text someone instead of waiting to see them face to face, online shopping is booming, and we don’t need to wait for a song to be played on the radio when you have instant access on Spotify. We can’t wait.
I’ll be honest, this word has frightened me recently. I am a planner. I like to plan in advance and know when things are going to happen. Unfortunately, the Lord doesn’t normally give you a premade planner to ease your fear for the future. He simply says, wait. Proverbs 19:21 says, “Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s that prevails.” This verse cuts deeply because I am that person! I have SO many plans, good plans in my heart, but the only ones that prevail are the Lord’s. I’ve been brought to my knees realizing that I don’t have control. I can’t control my circumstances, but I can control my reaction to them. I can always find joy. He is God, not me. Nothing has haunted me more than my fear for the future.
Will I graduate college? Will I have friends when I graduate? Where will I get a job? Am I cut out to be a teacher? Will I ever get married? Will I ever be enough for someone? Will someone else I love pass away? Will this be the last time I see someone? Will this heartache ever go away? These are the questions that run through my mind with the distracting and deceiving lies that go with each question. “You won’t graduate. No friends actually like you and once college graduation comes they are out of here. You won’t find a job near-by. You aren’t good enough to be a teacher. You won’t ever get married. You are and will never be enough. Death is right around the corner for your grandparents and others. This heartache will not go away and will continue to get worse.” These are the fears and lies that I can’t get out of my head. But then I remember the Truth.
“There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear.” (1 John 4:18) Fear is not from the Lord! It does not bring life, but instead destruction. Satan comes to distract, deceive, and destroy. Fear for me is the distracting portion. My mind gets distracted with all of these fears swarming without end around in my head. So how can we wait? How can we rest in the Lord and worship while we wait? It’s because our hope is not in our circumstances, but in the Lord. He is our foundation that we stand on! “Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from God. Truly He is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress. I will not be shaken!” (Psalm 62:5-6)
I no longer need to fear while waiting, but instead I can rejoice and find hope in the future because I know Who holds it! So no matter what tomorrow brings I can trust the Lord through it all. We will all need to wait in this life. I choose to worship through the wait.